When I found Freedom in Prison

When I was a child, I always thought Freedom is always inversely proportional to Imprisonment but as the days passed this theory of Freedom proved false.

From the day I made this heaven, I always worshipped these beautiful looking idols, materialistic thing, my existence and my ego. But I always stuck to one question that comes from within that if I have everything then why I am unable to find contentment. But as the time passed my experiences answered me everything which converted my heaven into hell and I found out my real status.

After Struggling whole day to earn my seat in this world, when I enter my room, sit on floor, bend my knees, raise my hands, close my eyes and pray to my God. This is the time when I actually get my freedom for which I am looking for entire day. Freedom of my thoughts, Freedom to share my feelings and Emotions, Freedom to ask for anything from my Lord, Freedom to cry as much as I want. This is the place where I find contentment when I worship my soul.

As I am growing old I am realizing my childhood theory of Freedom was so much incorrect because Freedom is not inversely but directly proportional to Imprisonment.

Quote II

Conscience speaks so loudly which no one can hear and I can’t ignore.

Yesterday

It’s just the beginning of a new day;

With lot of desires and emotions still to display;

A bit scared, my this day just not flyaway,

I want to see it shines bright despite of dissolving in gray;

I believe I will reach my destiny as I don't want to return from halfway;

The road is looking muddy, I wish I get a highway;

I rejuvenate when I make his portray, but it doesn’t seems like if these memories will ever fadeaway;

I am losing all my confidence and optimism, so before I shatter please ask him to come to me without delay,

I want to live all those moments with him once again but alas, in lives, there is no button of replay,

I always desire him from my lord whenever I pray, so before giving me any torment just think about me once. Okay?

Want to go close to him but unfortunately I have to walk alone anyway;

I know he will never come back but still waiting for him every day;

Each and every moment of my life, I tried to go close to him, still he easily left me and ran away;

The pain inside my broken heart is breaking me all the way, touch my heart once again and let this sorrow and agony go away;

Why I thought he take care of my feelings when I was sure he will betray;

After killing my soul, he easily walked away;

The storm of disloyalty is driving me away, Oh my Lord please show me a lifeway;

I really want to live in today but I don't know why I can't come out from yesterday?